ok yeah, i don't like Rich anymore. he was a waste of time... i like this kid Brian, it's Sarahs' Ex.. but oh well. he likes me too! i was so happy when i heard that he did. but, he is having weird feelings about us going out. he thinks that i'm just saying that i like him to mess with him for Sarah. well, guess what i don't really care about what Sarah does. all i know is that, i really do like him and i just want him to believe me. just becoz of what Sarah and her friend did to him.. he don't wanna relationship with me, coz he knows, i know Sarah. well, i don't know. i can see where he's coming from and all. but, i'm sad about it. i even told him everything about me and if i didn't fucking like him i wouldn't have told him anything about me.. i don't know, i just feel really bad that Sarah is gonna be that way to someone sooo nice. When she says shit about him, she acts like he is bad or mean or something. but, he is really nice and awesome as shit. he's someone that i need in my life, after i had Tim as a boyfriend.. yeah i don't know what i want anymore. but, yeah anyways... i'm doing a little better then the last entry. but, i can't sleep coz i've been having really bad dreams and shit like that. but, i'm gonna go and wait for Tiff to call to tell me she's on her way here. oh and i have to go back to the shithole tomorrow. i have therapy and then, my mom wants me home to see me til' friday. ok well, i hate this shit...
oh yeah, and Brian also has me listening to fucking Atreyu, lol